last day in spain

first of all thank you all so much who gave me messages or comments. and thank you haraguchi san for very useful information, but the thing is; i cant find the language bar on this all-spanish computer!!
so here it goes again, in english... sorry about that, haha

anyways, tomorrow morning i will be leaving barcelona, heading to marseille via montpellier.

here in barcelona i was just so amazed by gaudi's work. i loved guell park most of all. this is probably my first time to be totally impressed by an artificial object. it was just so amazing.
other than that barcelona seemed just ok to me.. the guy who i was going around with said they should've named this city gaudi and not barcelona, and i totally agree! hehe

as for the thing that happend yesterday morning (the theft and all that), i am starting to kinda appreciate it now. i mean, of course it is a shame that i've lost everything, but at the same time it kinda gave me more freedom. i know it sounds weird but this is how i am feeling right now.
when you have something it seems so precious you never wanna lose it and you even think you can't live without it. but once you lose it for some reason (not always an easy one) , and even if it might be despair that covers your heart all over in the beginning, in the meantime you move onto another height of perspectives; now there is nothing to lose anymore, nothing to keep you in a tight chain of greed.

hmmm.. nanka english ni jishin ga naiyo- umaku tsutawatta kana?
ushinau koto ha totemo kowai koto de, jibun kara ha nakanaka dekinai koto dakedo, ittan gaibuteki na youin de sounatte shimaeba, shibaru mono ga nanimo nakute, "nimotsu" ga kata kara orite, tokihanatareta kanji ga suru no. nanka "gaining through losing" tte kanji?

and here i recall a phrase from "Deep River" by Endo Shusaku, "tamanegi ha subete wo katsuyou nasaru no desu." (teki na something..)
there is no absolute goodness or badness. it's just a matter of when and where and how you look at something.